It was inevitable…with excitement of the holidays, 18 hours of darkness, and the amount of work and anticipation that’s gone into getting the new website up; I was bound to crash and burn with a case of the ‘winter blues’.
Since the site was launched last Friday, and after working at the hospital six days straight, the only thing I’ve been able to do when I attempt to write is sit and stare at the computer. The creative lights just aren’t turned on! Usually, ideas flow, but not this last week. I’m learning how to use my site all over again. Pass me the Advil.
The kicker?…My laptop crashed. I lost 6000 words of manuscript for my free ebook that should have been part of the site when it launched…that actually made me cry. Then, of course there’s taxes…that actually made me curse! It feels like my brain is frozen!
It’s been a strange winter indeed. For one thing, we just haven’t had any snow! So what’s the fun of freezing temperatures if there’s no white stuff to play in. We’ve had warm ups into the 40s, which is enough to keep you from trusting the ice on the lakes, and we’ve had cool downs to the minus teens which just keeps you indoors. Weird.
When we have made the 1 1/2 hour journey to Alyeska to ski, it has been raining on the lower mountain every time. It’s not terrible skiing in the rain, it’s just gloomy.
I’ve tried to get outside! I went for a long walk the other day, but the icy wind blowing in from the Knik arm, and a couple of naughty moose drove me back indoors. Cross country skiing? The snow on the local groomed tracks slightly higher in elevation has been melted and frozen so many times, it’s better suited to ice skates. I feel trapped in my house!
BUT ENOUGH WHINING!
I woke up this morning determined to figure out a cure for my winter blues. The first thing I acknowledged is that the sun is coming up earlier. I saw first lights on the horizon at around 7 a.m. which beats the heck out of 9 a.m., so positive thing number one!
Then, I sat down, and I wrote out a plan to focus on something positive for the next few months. It’s pretty detailed and has a primary goal (this continues to be my weight loss journey), and then descriptive paragraphs with sub goals for my website, books I’m starting to work on (or rewriting), spiritual progress, and family life. Positive thing number two! I can see a light at the end of the tunnel.
Finally, I thought about what I have enjoyed this winter. Besides Christmas, my daughters coming for Thanksgiving, and the Super Bowl (Go Broncos!), I have loved watching the Auroras and night skies in Alaska. Seeing the Northern Lights has been a dream come true.
Chasing them around is my new hobby. I’m learning how to photograph them and sometimes get lucky with a shot, but mainly, I just enjoy the spectacular display of natural beauty. Positive thing number three.
It’s time to crush the winter blues and focus on a different wavelength. Just writing this has already helped. In the end, there’s so much to look forward to.
Spring is coming, the bears will be waking up, moose will calve, and the landscape will explode with summer colors. Plus, it’s time to buy a house, but where? Stay tuned.